Anxiety

Anxiety sucks! I'm constantly day dreaming in Nutrition class. Mostly dreaming of the upcoming snow season. I sit there looking out the window looking at the trees whose leaves are changing colors every day. The trees block my view of the foothills, which block my view of the mountains. 

My mind is always off in the mountains, visualizing runs, where all the little bumps and dips are, and where all the fun natural jibs are on the mountain. I see myself, almost as clearly as I am seeing the screen in front of me now, flying down the right side of Cascade hitting the fun little roller. Bounce little backside 180's off the first one, switch ollie the second, and cab 360 the last one. Cut into the trees, through the wide open banked snake run, pumping for speed to clear the cat track at the end. Carry your speed to the little hip jump that throws you into the slow area. Super fun run! 

Snap!

I'm back in Nutrition class. I haven't heard the last 5 minutes of information Sarah has been teaching us. Then anxiety hit me. I haven't been on my boards for over 5 months and I have to try to wait patiently for just 1 more month. My heart is usually pounding because I am so anxious. I don't like that feeling very much sometimes.