I learned from this book that God's will is to be saved, Spirit-filled, sanctified, submissive, and suffering. I am struggling in a few of those areas. The author continues on in the last chapter to say the final step is to do whatever you want! Can I do whatever I want if I'm not living out one of the five previous steps the book mentions? I don't think so. If I'm not one of those things, but I am doing whatever I want really isn't what God wants. Confusing? Let me try to clarify. If I am following those five principles, then the things I want to do is given to me by God. My heart and my faith is where it should be and because of that God will give me what I want, because it is what He wants also. I hear people say all the time these days, "If you want something in life you have to put your all into and you will get it." I use to believe that, but I have changed that now. I believe that if I trust and follow God, He will give us what we want, because it is His will for us. It is important though to remember to not get discouraged when God closes a door on you. It takes persistence. I haven't had persistence lately. I follow God for a while then He closes a door on me and I just give up. I need to stop doing this off and on relationship with God. It doesn't work for a boyfriend and a girlfriend to have an off and on relationship. The relationship doesn't grow and develop and blossom.
I have to lose my pride! Number one! I haven't thought of myself to be prideful and to have a huge ego, but if I am trying to control my life on my own, then I do have pride. It's like a drunk driver, they don't think they are drunk and they try to drive home. That ride home let's say is going to heaven. That drunk driver is swerving all over the road never really in control, but they think they are. Right now for me, I feel like I have been pulled over and given a DUI. It is good for me. God is telling me to stop! I need help. I have to surrender my life, car in the analogy, and let God take the wheel. God is my designated driver and He will help me get home, to heaven!
I don't know where I am going with all of this right now. I feel like I know what I am saying and it is right. But the Devil is trying to confuse me right now through my tiredness and make me think that I am just rambling on and on, but I know God is sitting right next to me on my couch looking at me and saying, You are getting it Beny! I feel encourage tonight to know where I am in this crazy, messed up world. I am a son of God, and I am love and I don't have to worry about where my life takes me because God is driving my car! It doesn't mean however that life is going to be easy. Life is only getting harder for me, and I know this because I see it. The closer I get God and follow Him, the more the Devil is trying to pull me away from God. It is time for me to brace myself and hold on to God during this storm. I find peace and strength in God and He is my Lord, my Rock, my Foundation, and my Friend who is always there for me to take refuge in! I LOVE YOU GOD!
Peace and Love friends
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